Saturday, December 17, 2011

Striving For Perfection

People look for perfection.
People dream to achieve perfection.

Even though everyone knows - perfection is rare, little, sometimes non-existent.

But what is perfect?

A sunny day, not a cloud in the big blue sky?
A soft, moist, creamy piece of cake?
Waking up to a rainy morning and being able to go back to sleep?
Having everything go according to plan?

That sunny day may suddenly rain. The soft moist creamy piece of cake may be soft moist and creamy to you but not to another person. That  rainy morning makes it difficult for others who do need to get out. And to get things to go according to your plans happens most of the time only in the movies.

Eh, negativenya?

On a lighter note... "Perfection" does bring different meanings to different people. And, we never seem to want to give up on being 'perfect'.

Perfection - it is something we all wish for at some point of our lives. It's only human. Greatness cannot be achieved without some spunk and self-confidence. You are what you believe. So believe in all that is gooood. *cheerleaders cheering you on*
No one is perfect… that’s why pencils have erasers. -anon

I'm nothing in between, you know you wouldn't want it any other way

Happy holidays! Bye!

Friday, December 16, 2011



Actually, ada ka orang read my blog? Baru mau wonder after so long...

Okay. I had a really good burger for dinner. Come I take you to half an hour ago when I had my burger

Caramelized onions and sauteed mushrooms on a beef patty topped with honey BBQ sauce covered in Cheddar Cheese
(Buh. Padahal tiada apa-apa special pun)

Bah ya la. Memang la tidak special, tapi kan... Sedap oh! Mmm. I was afraid my beef patty wouldn't cook well, I poked the patty so many times it looked kinda not so pretty once it was cooked. Doesn't matter la ba kan, as long as sedap and it was so juicy! Mmm.

Sebenarnya, I have an assignment to complete. Due Saturday. But tonight I just feel like listening to music and sing in celebration of the completion of my first semester at UH. I have a 3-week Christmas break, which I still have 3 assignments to kasi siap, sebelum the next sem. Why? Because all of it will be due on the first week of the new semester.


I have had some sort of bad luck with dips/sauces in the past 2 days.

Scene #1
  I wanted to eat my Doritos with my nacho cheese dip. Tangan saya kecil, lepas tu kan, the bottle pula susaaaah betul mau buka. Okay FINE. I ran it under hot water. Try buka again. Cannot. Lagi, run lagi longer under hot water. Try lagi, nda boleh juga! Okay. Another try running the cap under hot water lagi lama sikit. Sekali twist the cap, SPLAT! on my nose, my face, a little on my toes, blotches on the carpet, one loooong streak on the sink, on the side of my cupboard and on my laundry. The bottle cracked and chipped a little bit (I don't know where the chipped part went). My room smelled like cheese dip.

Scene #2
  I wanted to eat my Doritos with my BBQ sauce. I dunno lah why I so pandai, I took a piece of the Dorito chip and attempted to picit out some BBQ sauce on to that piece. Sekali I picit! Banyak keluar! And it ended up on my toe and chair.

Maybe it isn't the dip/sauce. Maybe... it's the Doritos.

Waiting and waiting in vain
Before I go, nah ini dia lagu sexy. Ada orang mau dedicate to me? Ahem!

Happy weekend! Bye!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


Lagi setengah tahun baru I can feast like nobody's business on:

Nasi lemak with ayam merah mmmmm.
Roti planta without gula
Carl's Jr
Little Italy
Bella Italia
Ngiu Chap
Something that starts with M
Tutti Frutti
La Risata
Steamboat Ikano tu
Ikea Meatballs
Daim Cake
Macaroni & Cheese Secret Recipe
Tom Yam Kung Secret Recipe
Laksa di belakang Baiduri!
Cendol di belakang Baiduri!
Sotong goreng
Ebi Tempura
Ayam panggang Tg. Aru
Kangkung belacan Cozy Corner
Sweet Sour Kerapu Cozy Corner
Broccoli in oyster sauce Cozy Corner
Udang something something Cozy Corner
Delicious mmmmm
DIM SUM mmm chicken feeeet bbq paaauuu siew maaaai
Bagan Lalang
Any sort of seafood
SOFT SHELL CRAB with wasabi mayo at FullHouse
Crispy Sisters Popiah
Beard Papa's
Banana fritters Madam Kwan
Hot & Roll
Rojak di Lintas homai sedapppp
Onion Rings
Seafood platter NYNY
Nasi Ayam
Thai Thai

Okay... umm. Lapar. Bye!

Take a Breather

Stop. Step back.

Close your eyes, take a deeeeep breath.

Now exhale.

Okay. Picking yourself up all by your lonesome isn't really an easy thing to do. Bah, biasalah, human kan?

Sometimes, we sendiri yang put ourselves in that position, we sendiri yang push ourselves to the ground. Mana dengan peer pressure lah, pressure from parents lah, images shown in the media lah, stresses from work and life lah. Then after sudah jatuh gugur tersungkur dengan sendirinya, we begin to ask ourselves, "Why the hell did I do that to myself?"

Yes, we just can't help it kadang-kadang. But we have control over our hearts and minds, don't we? Solution dia satu seja, keep a reminder, a post-it, a mental image that says: Don't do it to yourself. And really try to resist the urge.

Epp! Don't do it to yourself. Gitu. You know?

I should know.

Things to embrace
1. The way you think
2. Your unique features
3. Your differences from others
4. The weird sense of self-love
5. The wonder of complexity and in-ordinary-ness that is Y-O-U. *smiles with gigi tidak lurus tapi masih lawa juga bah dari teda gigi nah mana satu kau mau?*

Take a breather, think happy thoughts, go to your happy place, and laugh at yourself once in a while. It may work.

Okay lah. Lapar ni. Happy positivity! Bye!

Feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you, only you can let it in.


Thursday, December 8, 2011

Feel good

Sometimes, you just got to pick yourself up.

I want to pick myself up, so here's a (vain) list of 22 things why I am special. Twenty two cause well. You know. I'm 22 years old.

So if like. You're not into me puji-ing myself  or reading a long (but really interesting) post you can skip it :p

#1 I can eat like nobody's business, and its hard for me to gain weight. :] But I need to gain weight. Because I am unfortunately underweight. So sometimes it's difficult you know, when I eat and it does show, it shows in my face. Not like...go to places where I want it to go. But then again, I am glad I can eat and eat and eat and eat! I <3 to eat.

#2 I am small. Sure I find it hard to cari baju that's my size, BUT! You know. People think I'm young cause of my size. And I can run around the playground and pretend I'm 12. And up till I think I was 18, when I went to makan with family, I still got charged as CHILD. See? I help save money.

#3 I live near Tg. Aru beach. Okay la not la I special cause of this but I got umm. Extra. Like... You know? Have you seen the sunsets there?! Homaigoodness. To die for. So pretty. It's been such a long time since I've seen one. Don't believe la tu how cantik it is. Nah, cuba you see!


#4 I THINK I can dance.  Well, for fun, not professionally. Although how I dream of being able to.......


 #5 I may be stubborn. But that just means I'm strong willed. Yeeaah. Give me some credit. I'm not stubborn ALL the live long day. Heh.

#6 I am daughter to parents whom may be so ARGHHH sometimes but they always have their reasons. And I'm the one daughter that cooks for the family. And the one daughter who took over making kuih Raya. And also pumpkin cake yang sedap. Which makes me extra extra extra special.

On the way back from Kudat Syawal 2011
#7 I found out that my birthday according to the Hijri calendar is on the 6th of Syawal. THEREFORE. My birthday is on the 6th day of raya, which is impossible for anyone to forget :D And, I am already 23. If use that calendar la. *secretly in denial*

#8 When I was younger, I entered a singing competition for Christmas organized by my computer class. (Yes, I went to computer classes. It was so much fun) And Abang Shaun yang jahat gila scared me made me cry right before I had to go up the stage. And well, you guessed it. I sang Que Sera Sera while nangis teresak-esak. "Que seraaa *sobsob* seraaaaa. Whatever will beeee *sobsob* will beeee". I remember practising it with Papa. Haha now that I think of it whyyy lah did I join. I got third place, by the way if you're wondering. Okay la so what la if it is hadiah kesian. The important thing is I did it anyway. :P

#9 Also, when I was younger, like my tadika Tunasari days, I was the rapper! Shit. Hahahaha. Rap as in betul betul rap okay? We were doing some turtle awareness thingy and we were like "SAVE THE TURTLE! SAVE THE TURTLE!" and I had my friends dancing (all of us dressed like turtles. Grey-ish shiny jumpsuits with a turtle shell on our backs. For real!). Then, my first line was "We are the children of Tunasari!" Oh God punya la trip haha! I guess when you grow older all your guts just hilang.

#10 I think I was an accidental baby. Hoho. But but buuutt. Mummy say, bila she pregnant with me, she say I am for "bikin main-main, kasi kawan" dia bilang. Nah. Memang betul pun. I am her lamb, everywhere she went I was sure to go. I'm loved. :]

#11 I managed to ditch bit by bit the habit of procrastinating! That is quite a feat! I used to think I function well under pressure, but perhaps I function even better with more time. 

#12 I am special because I have a Diploma before I go into my Degree, which gives me an edge kind of. You know. Like. Ya. It really does help. A lot.

#13 I was part of the 2004 SFC choir team who were National champs! Woohoo! The story was, I was only called on to join to be a backup/pelapis for pianist. Then. They tidak cukup orang? Haha. I know la I was like not first choice or anything, but still! It was a moment so proud. I love SFC. Like. My school spirit is so tinggi. Then after that win we got so many invites to perform sini sana. And plus free food. Ooooh. Hehe.

This was in The Star! There I am tuu di the paling left di depan. Oh wow.
#14 I made two really good speeches (at least that was what I was told) so far in my whole lifetime. One was during my secondary school graduation "pride and joy" and the other was during Abang Shaun and Kak Nurul's wedding dinner in 2008.

#15 I have/had two cats that I really loved and love me back (cheh kununnn) One, Bimbo. My blue-eyed silly beauty who would also minta my jagung. And two, Jojo Hamau Gaga The Cat. Who was and still is an excellent friend and teman and the nakalest and the silliest but has the cutest nose and pink cushion paws. Naaaw. 

Jojo & Bimbo :')
#16 I have gigi satu. You have? Don't have kan. Naah. Special la jadi dia. Let me show you definition of gigi satu. 

See the red arrow pointing to my gigi. That is my gigi satu. It makes me smile in two different ways depending what side my face is facing. But! I've learned to accept.
#17 I am Nanay (auntie) to these two boys! One monkey jumping on the bed and one yet to be known.... Izzarif a.k.a IZZY!! and Ryan Irfan a.k.a Baby Ryan! Okay I don't have Ryan's picture in my laptop. But you all know Izzy :D 

Can you feel his ke-jajal-an?

#18 When I turned 18, I spent my birthday with the Bons at Hyatt courtesy of Mummy dearest. I felt special cause my best friends went to all the trouble and made me a baju so pretty! Cuba you see...
See! The pretty butterfly!
#19 I am able to take criticism and am patient. Alamak perasannya. Hahaha! Betul la. Although I may be like ^*@(#D)*@^! in my heart, but I will accept what you say with open arms. Yes, I do realise things and though it takes A LOT for me to finally take action, but in the end I do it. I take that step to change what needs to be changed.

#20 I have the greatest friends anyone could ask for. Serious. We may not go on holidays together, or live nearby or meet all the time or so rich we buy gifts for each other. But I sure know that they mean so much to me! 

See me embracing my gigi satu. Eh. Heh. Love you all!
#21 I feel special because you make me feel special. And so the best penceria, tukang make silly lame jokes, selalu dowan to laugh at my jokes, pembully, tukang fix barang, teman makan, teman play monopoly (or any games for that fact) sampai gaduh, teman jalan-jalan, teman buat kerja bodoh, and segalanya yang happy in my life. ALLY my love! <3

The paling best day and best place with the best person. Mau go lagi. Rindunya.

#22 I am special cause just cause I am! God created me as one of a kind. He made me patient, a crybaby, silly, clumsy, pretty, hot. He gave me a good brain and a good heart. He gave me good health, great family, great friends. And I'm limited edition! No me, no more la sudah! Satu seja Hana Nazsulaeeqa Harun di dunia. :)

If you made it this far! Yay! Thanks heee heee! 

Kita semua special in our own silly little weird way. We just need to take a sec, pause and take it all in and say to ourselves "HOWAU! I'm so great." It's really okay you know to be perasan sekali sekala. We all do it, feel good doing it, so... why not, right?

Why are you special? :)

ps: I love you.

Monday, December 5, 2011

I'm On Your Back

If you'd accept surrender,
I'll give up some more 
Weren't you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

Friday, November 25, 2011

How do I say this.

Umm. Okay.

Now how do I put this.

I thought I could say it out here, turns out. I just can't seem to find the right words!

But too lazy to move my fingers from the keyboard to the trackpad/mouse. Therefore lazy to click the close button to just not post this meaningless post. So I should just make it something lah.

Mau karaokeeee. It's just such a good way to let it all out. Mannnn.

I tried being productive this week, but the most productive I got was, like for an accumulative time of an hour and a half for the whole week. I wanna say it's a good week because only today (Friday) will I be going to class. I basically had the whole week off. Yet I have a proposal due Sunday, and an essay on Theodor effing Adorno whose article I just can't seem to finish reading. Distractions! I seriously need to read it, but I find myself reading the same lines over and over again which really means, I'm not concentrating.

How do you concentrate when...


Rindu si Izz.

Okay lah.


I forgot how much I love this song!


Monday, November 21, 2011


Everybody hurts. Everyone feels pain once, twice, countless of times.

What makes it different is the way he or she handles the pain.

It's ridiculous sometimes how I get hurt over silly things. Tiny petty things. Once the feeling is over, I tell myself how stupid it was to feel that way.

Ignorance, not really bliss. Ignorance from a different point of view is anger, and sadness. Or disappointment. 

Holding on to a few things. Patience, faith, and love. And a whole lot of positivity.

Tears=me=tears. Normal. It's just my way of feeling better. It does help, even for a little while.

Probably not so okay now. But I'll come through. If there's a flood, I might get wet but I'll climb up high to get dry. That's what counts, right?
Jatuh, bangun lah kan bilang you.

Heart vs Mind.
Never ending battle.

72. Oh macam forever.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

To heal

I close my eyes.

We're laying on the grass
Holding hands
Staring blankly at the sky
White clouds
Soft cool breeze
Gentle warmth of the sun

We're sitting on the beach
Holding hands
Staring blankly at the endless sea
Blue waters
Sounds of waves crashing
Grainy pale sand

My eyes are still closed.

I think I have too-much free time on my hands. And it's probably affecting me. I really do have things to do. But you know lah kan.

It's a serious roller coaster ride. Whether I puke, or say "Let's do that again," or both together, I'll never know until the ride is over.

For now... Let's just enjoy it. Make it worth the screams thrills tears and laughters.

Here's a saya-sedih-hati-tidak-tenang-tapi-mau-happy-and-senang-hati song.
We'll heal.


Sunday, November 13, 2011

Pouring my heart out

It is a battle between the heart and the brain.

Collaboration between your heart and your brain doesn't always produce a great melody.

You know how people wanna be happy for other people? I was just wondering, at what stage and at what level of maturity must you have to reach that point.

Well sure. I've had my own share of shit. Now I can sincerely say I am happy for that person whom I used to wish I could pijak-pijak. It was easier to let go then.

But now I am left to wonder... How do you be happy for someone else?

How do people let go, for another person's happiness? How can you be 100% genuinely happy for another person, without feeling a little negativity in yourself? How do people have positivity, without anything contradicting your thoughts and emotions? Thing is. True happiness cannot be bought. Cannot be exchanged for, cannot be bargained.

Level of difficulty: Very High.

Not impossible though.

Honestly, I wish my heart and my mind can come to an agreement. And stick with it. Cause one says another, the other says another thing. I know I have it in me. I know I can do it if I really wanted to. It's mind over matter. The heart makes you feel things. Things that sometimes... don't make sense. This...predicament. Sucks.

You wanna tell yourself it's okay, it'll happen if it was meant to happen.

Truth be told. I have an outer shell cracking. I'm in the midst of gluing things back together. Because there are so many other better times than this. Biasa lah tu. Sometimes we're up high. Other times we're down low. Only when you've been at the ultimate low will you know, how sturdy the ladder you built to get you back to the top.

Faith. That is all you need.

With time probably wounds heal. There might be a scar, but nobody said life's smooth sailing all the time.

"listen, I just want you to be happy. I really do"

It takes some guts to actually mean that.
OH. I go pasang lagu emo dulu. Bye.

Really listen.


Happy to receive my scans today.


Monday, November 7, 2011

Halt! Who goes there?

image credits to


All blogging processes will resume after erm. I buy a camera charger! Yes, I lost mine. I've been camera-less all this while here (two months in 3 weeks, so fast!) and have been relying on my phone camera. I would like to share what my Uni looks like :) Mana la tau kan ada yang care. *minta attention*

Anyhoo... Things haven't exactly been smooth for the pass one month plus I've been here. But I strongly believe that things will get better!

Really wanting to meet the rest of my girls who are here! Let's see, we've got people in Aberystwyth (Cammie I donno how to spell your welsh uni), Liverpool, Manchester, Birmingham, Bristol, Southampton, Middlesex, POLAND. (Tiba-tiba satu di sana).

Pelan-pelan bah. All out of UK travelling will start TAHUN DEPAN. Wohoho. I'll settle with going around here for the timebeing! Banyak lagi I belum go. I haven't done the touristy things yet. No Big Ben, or London Eye, or Madam Tussaud's, or the red double decker bus, or the red telephone booth. The most UK-ish thing I've done is probably... Eat scones with jam and clotted cream. Heh.

I miss eating sesuka hati. Aih -__-

Here's a pick-yourself-up-after-a-bad-day-sad-sounding-positivity-song song for you peopleee :D See you soon and Happy November!

ps: I miss you.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Less than 12 hours

All I have in KK is less than 12 hours. Mmhmm.

 I just thought it sounds really sweet.

my 30-day blog challenge.  *insert big HAH! here*

I am going to miss you. terribly.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

It'll get better

It's like two extremes. Extremely high, or extremely low.

I tell myself its a bump, a little speed bump on the way to the destination. Reminding myself that there are truly better days than this. Remembering that nothing is worth losing it.

It's all good. It'll get better.



See, I can be positive.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

I need a distraction

So I went through my blog posts and decided to do this!

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

Little of Your Time. Maroon5. Like. Huh?

Jane Doe. Alicia Keys, I am a Jane Doe. Sometimes.

Eh, eh (Nothing Else I Can Say). Lady Gaga. Haha!

Stronger Than Ever. Christina Aguilera. Thank you.

You Found Me. Kelly Clarkson... Yes, cause my life purpose is for people to find me *rolls eyes*

Do it. Spice Girls. It fits!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? (o no, this better be good!)
Dancing in the Moonlight. Toploader. It's a happy song I like!

(WOW!) My parents think i'm The One. Mariah Carey. *proud*

I think about the California King Bed. Rihanna

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
is 4. But... Be OK. Ingrid Michaelson

I think of my best friend as Suara Hati Seorang Kekasih. Wow. Love you my lovers. Melly Goeslaw

is a Tattoo. Jordin Sparks

hahahahahaha I am undecided cause I wanna be Black or White! MJ

My Saving Grace. Mariah Carey

Whoa. Closer! Ne-Yo.

Untitled. Hmm? Its not a sad song! Maliq & D'Essentials

A Beautiful Mess :) Jason Mraz

Goodnight Goodnight. Maroon5

Stripped Pt. 2. nah ambil kau! Haha. Christina Aguilera

I guess I want to go Back to What You Know. Ne-Yo

Diva! hahahah! Beyonce. You guys diva that I love!

Hujan Turun. Sheila on7

Not gonna tag anyone. I just need a distraction.

Friday, August 19, 2011


Dear Bimbo,

I'm sorry if 7 years was too short for you. Sorry for being with you on and off again since 2007. Sorry I wasn't able to take care of you fully.

I remember how you used to wake me up by sitting on my chest and meowing as loud as you can, and biting my nose and my kening. I remember how I had to take you out every morning just so that you could go and do your thing. I remember how every time I eat jagung you'll come asking for some. I remember how you would just meow at me asking me to teman you makan.

I'm really sorry Bimbo for not being here when you were sick.

Bye Bimbo. I miss you.

Love, always.


A picture of a person I'd love to trade places for a day : Day 6

I had to think really hard but,


Beyonce Giselle Knowles!

Why? I'll tell you why.

#1 She can really sing - I wonder what it feels like to perform alone in a crowd. 
#2 She can dance! - I wanna dance like she can
#3 She's got a great booty - *spank*
#4 She's so nice
#5 And I would really like to wonder how many takes it did to complete the Single Ladies video clip. Wooh! Cause it is TIRING!

I would like to welcome Regina Ho to blogspot!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Home/Day 5: a picture of your favourite memory

PUNYA LAH. Baru day 5 rupanya.

Ally was right. There's no way I can bikin this 30-day blog challenge without having a rest in between.

Okay so I'm home. There are duties that come with being at home, i.e. memasak, cuci piring, cuci kain, jemur kain, lipat kain, etc.

Saya ada list of benda-benda that I really wanna do while I'm here:
1. Go sungkai somewhere with friends
2. Watch the sunset at where else but Tg. Aru
3. Make some honeycomb
4. Make raya cookies
5. Bake a cake.
6. Go pulau

Itu iiiitu seja kan? Heh.

So anyway...

Day 5: A picture of your favourite memory

 taken during Monash's musical show of Hairspray.

Favourite memory because: It was when it never occured to us that the giant cardboard-made can of hairspray was a hairspray.

When it was brought out, the dialogue was...
Ain: What's that? A highlighter? Glue?
In Lindsay's mind: A giant marker?
Me (so excitedly like i just had an epiphany): IT'S HAIRSPRAY!

Second favourite memory

Taken on the day we filled in fuel before going to play frisbee with Ain & Cammie

Favourite memory because: We hesitated whether to go take a picture with the guy driving the car because we weren't sure. But it was truly and really this guy...

And one more...

Favourite memory because: This was the day I was talking about my dream home. 



Saturday, July 23, 2011

Testing 1 2 3

So my exams are over.

My final paper I was first to complete. Before I could leave the exam room my lecturer said "you can still write some more". Thing is, I have nothing more to write. Like. Really. Habis suda. But okay. Anything la kan.

My 30-day blog challenge has been put on hold on the count of I have other more important things to do. Cheh kunun ja kan. Hehe.

My iPod Touch now is my friend, downloading every possible app I find useful/fun/cool to have when people swipe through it. I book movies, check money, check flight tickets, and blog! Apa ni, macam promote promote pula.

I have also managed to turn my iPod Touch into a phone, but it still needs internet connection which sort of defies the purpose. Wait, is "defies" even a word?

I really like this photo of Jojo

So yes. I really hope to start with the blog challenge once more. When I'm back in KK perhaps.



Saturday, June 25, 2011

A week delayed!

I stayed home on Tuesday and Wednesday instead of going to class. And on Thursday, I was pretty confident that my class began at 2, I arrived so nicely the timing, got parking, went on the bus, and checked the timetable to see where the venue was. Open image>enlarge>enlarge>... Class was at 12. And the bus was already moving.


So much for being a good girl. Heh.

Anywho, here's the week-delayed day 4 of the 30 day blog challenge! Because I tangguh and Blogger was bitchy.

Day 04: A picture of your favourite night.

Just one night? Highly impossible.

Night #1: My 19th Birthday, at Upperstar KK.
Reggie drove everyone!
After picking up Thara, we had to drive back to her place cause she forgot to minta money.
Initial plan was to celebrate at Upperstar Damai, but it was raining, and there was no electricity.
Drove to KK to see where we could eat that had electricity.
Went to Upperstar KK which had no electricity at first, then tada! Lights!
Ain yang bertudung masuk bar.

This picture represents the last time I celebrated my birthday will all four of them together. :')

Night #2: Abang Shaun & Kak Nurul's Wedding Reception Dinner, Le Meridien

I missed my Malaysian Studies exam to come home to this! Mana boleh I don't have.
Was asked to speak on behalf of the family (-_-), had a last minute speech, completed in the bathroom, with the help of Ain & Reggie.
The speech was short & simple BUT had impact, cause it made her cry! Hehe.
I had fun, all the way from preparations to this night.

Night #3: 31st December 2009 - 1st January 2010

Pika, Shafa, Tharie came together to my house for a BBQ and a sleepover!
Had really good food. Yummm. Plus everyone at home decided to stay home and eat the abundance of food we had that night!
Plenty and I mean plenty of laughter that night
Wanted to watch a horror movie late late at night, then stopped after a few minutes just 'cause the crow was scary. We ended up watching some bunuh-bunuh story. Heih.
I had a lot of fun!

Night #4: Abang Nafiq & Kak Sue's Reception at Home

Not colour-coded
Backdrop made spontaneously at midnight!
Smiles on everyone
I was a part of every step in this wedding! Right from the tunang and nikah in Johor, then the receptions in KK! Weddings are fun when you're involved ;)

Family = love!

Night #5: The mini reunion of 12 Bestari-Arif people at The Hut, City Mall

What a night!
We were so loud people kept staring at us. Laugh sikit, stare. Laugh sikit glare. Ish.
12 Convent girls who just can't help it but be loud.
It was a night filled with loudness and crazy stories especially from those who were on breaks from their studies abroad.
The next gathering should be bigger. And louder.

Night #6: Michael Buble Crazy Love Tour, March 13th 2011

(I know the rule said picture but my pictures during the concert semua buruk)
This was his final song for the night, 'A Song for You', and at the end, he sings to the crowd without a mic and his voice super powerful!
A week or two before the concert date, I accompanied Cammie to collect the tickets which were meant for her parents and herself.
She joked, saying "Try you imagine ba my parents lupa beli ticket to KL to see this concert"
A few days before, she rang me and asked "Hana.... Are you free Sunday night?"
Not remembering what was going on I asked, why. Then she said, "You better be free. Lets go to Michael Buble's concert!"
On the day of the concert, I had a toe infection. Which made it hard for me to walk. But I have people who love me who were willing to carry me <3

I therefore thank Cammie and her parents for my first concert! Ever!

Night #7: My 22nd Birthdaaayyy all over KL! 

 Was gonna put a different picture but I don't think Ally thinks she looks good. Eheh.
Dinner the night before at Victoria's Station.
The next day got pampered with a pedi!
Dinner again on my birthday night at Fullhouse.
I asked for a cake with 22 candles. And all I got was a "are you kidding me?" face.
I had the greatest time, nonetheless. <3

Next year can I please have my 23 candles?


and, the highlight of the year (so far)

I was gonna upload a video, but my laptop's failing on me
**pics credit to**

Night #8: Maroon5 Live in KL, April 29th 2011

Cammie and I had pretty bad seats but
SO worth it. So so worth it.
We ended up getting down on the railing where there was no one and everyone just stood for the rest of the concert.
They're just so great live. Like. WHOA. Like WOW!
And! My ticket was a birthday present from Ally, so Ally, without you, I wouldn't have been able to go.

So I bent the rules of the challenge a lil. Baru la fun! ;) see you on day 5! Lovelovelove!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Still going on strong. Day 3.

Happy Saturday Night all!

I had a complete breakfast lunch and dinner but I am hungry. Okay bukan lah hungry berabis, I just need to munch something.

At this very moment, Jojo is running around the room for no apparent reason. We were out the whole day, so I guess she's just happy we're home...?

So here goes day 3.

Day 03: A picture of the cast from your favorite show.


'Nuff said.
They're just so funny! F.R.I.E.N.D.S bloopers, watch it! Happy weekend :)

Friday, June 10, 2011

Attempt part 2.

Good petang all.

To-day i got my caffeine fix. (second one this week, not that I need any sort of caffeine fixing - I just like it) Just cause I had the buy one free one voucher coupon thingy from Cleo last month. And it was with Cammie dearest!

Before pulang-ing. Bah biarla bah. :P

Okay so today is day 2! (see, I rajin)

Day 02: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

 I know it said 'a' picture. I can't help it. :)

Anyway, that's is Ain! My childhood friend. Taught me how to ride a bike. My first bride-to-be "client" if I ever have my own wedding gallery thingy. Had piano lessons, mengaji lessons, camped under barbie tent inside house, playground sessions, endless hang out sessions together.
A friend of 16 years, and counting! I love you Ain! Thank you for being a part of my life!

I would've put my family, but that's a given.

Till day 3!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

In an attempt to revive the SuperGirl


Its been a very long time, yes I know. How's every one been lately? The weather hasn't been so nice to us these days, kan?

Quick update!

• in my 2nd year in school, have clue no what semester cause I'm really all over the place!
• pindah-randahing quite a bit. Nothing I'm not used to. I have moved about... Jap kira dulu... about 4 and a half times.
• Duit masih unmanageable. Someone teach me.
• Seem to have gained weight.
• Cut my hair short! No decent picture of it yet. An acquaintance said, "you CUTTED your hair!"
• Keyboard of this laptop sot sot already. I suspect Izz being the culprit.
• I am a happier girl.

So I stumbled upon the 30-day blog challenge on Mag's blog...

Day 01: A picture of yourself with 10 facts.
Day 02: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
Day 03: A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04: A picture of your favourite night.
Day 05: A picture of your favourite memory.
Day 06: A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07: A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08: A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09: A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10: A picture of the person you do the most fucking up things with.
Day 11: A picture of something you hate.
Day 12: A picture of something you love.
Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14: A picture of something you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15: A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16: A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17: A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18: A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19: A picture and a letter.
Day 20: A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22: A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23: A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24: A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25: A picture of your favorite day.
Day 26: A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27: A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28: A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30: A picture of someone you miss.

And I'm gonna start....

Day 01: A picture of yourself with 10 facts.
 Okay. Vain ka? Haha.

#1 I am almost always hungry.
#2 I am really sensitive to bulu kucing. Except Jojo's. Used to be okay with Bimbo, but not anymore.
#3 I am Brusunrunese. That's Brunei-Dusun-Murut-Chinese. 
#4 Apparently my ears go red when I'm crying.
#5 You just cannot leave me waiting alone in a mall. I'm bound to spend my money.
#6 I function well last-minute. Though I must must must stop procrastinating (an every-year-new-year's-resolution).
#7 I only had my first concert on March 13th, which was Michael Buble's (so best!), which was courtesy of Cammie. And Cammie's parents. Who couldn't make it. Hoho. And also my second concert (Maroon5 woohmygoodness), a month later!
#8 I don't eat durian
#9 Sometimes I do judge a book by its cover. Literally.
#10 I was the lead rapper during my kindergarten days for a performance which was entitled "SAVE THE TURTLE!" (we were wearing silver shiny jumpers and we had TURTLE SHELLS on our back I still have pictures omg) I rap, yo. 'Sup.

Going good so far! Excited for next one. Heh!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011



Shouldn't I be happier being here?

My heart and mind is really somewhere else.

Monday, April 4, 2011


Some girl randomly gave a guess and won's Rock The Beat after so so long.


The song was

Who would've known.

We all could use that money.

I cannot wait for this semester to be over, want the holidays to be here, want my brithday to come faster (and stay! - if only.)

I wonder how long a person can stay patient for. Or how long a person can stand another's inability to do certain things or perform to a certain level.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Menstruating Cake Addict

Now, who hates cake, angkat tangan! Ish. Apa lah.

I've been on a break for so long from blogging, I've gotten really bad at it I think. Sometimes I wish my brain could electromagnetically or uhm magically send waves to my blog to pen down my thoughts and feelings at the mo'. Cheh mau juga "at the mo", at the moment sudah la ba kan?

I really miss home.

I've got no stories to tell. Seriously.

But I do have a really lame joke to share!

What do you call a fish with no eye?

Ally totally got angry over that riddle because she said, "a fish with no eye is blind". WHICH IS EVEN FUNNIER! *insert big laughter here*

I love you Jojo. Even though you attack my kaki secara tiba-tiba. Gigit me kadang-kadang when I'm trying to sayang-sayang you. Sleep in the cupboard and leave your bulu merata-rata. Spit your pills out. Pandai melawan. Pandai tampar orang. Play fetch then drop your toy halfway back. Wake us up by meowing loudly. Chew on my bunga. Cari penyakit. Take up space when people are trying to tidur. Drink out of my cup (which you just did about 2 seconds ago, thank you Cat I was thirsty). Sit on books/laptop when people are trying to read/buat kerja. Always trying to bunuh diri. Messing up the table when you think there's CICAK when really there's none. Eat bugs.

But your cuteness, hidung pink, silliness, manja-ness, your constant failed attempts to surprise us, and your ability to somewhat understand the both of us makes me love you always, if not more, nonetheless.

And to you.

How can I not love you.

I told you I've got no stories to tell. Thanks for reading anyway. I'll be more rajin and creative next time. Really.

With love,

and Jojo!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Regina Ho.

I miss you plenty.
I miss talking to you.
I miss laughing with you.
I miss hanging out with you.
I miss our comfortable silence.
I miss the "I know what you're thinking" moments.

Where are you Best Friend?