It's not something that I'd ever expected to happen.
Nobody wishes for it to happen.
Nobody wants it to happen.
But the disappointment isn't from the "happening".
It came from the failure of being able to see how much it worries me and how much I'm scared.
Has it been that bad all this while, until this has come to be what it had become? How could those words and phrases be uttered?
And the question is, am I that bad?
Tapi saya sabar. If one day it comes to realisation, i would expect a sincere, true, and heartfelt apology. But for now, I, apologise for my flaws.
And you are forgiven.