How do I put to words what I feel. What my thoughts are.
I want to do one thing but I'm not sure if I can handle what comes with (or without) it.
I've head so much in my mind lately, I just don't know how to say it. It's all jumbled up and mixed up and un-teratur.
Maybe I know what I want. But I'm just in denial. And I'm just too afraid.
How do I be brave? How do I separate my heart from my mind?
The more I grow older the more I think I need a change.
I must not be lazy. I must not be a pushover. I must smile and laugh more. I must learn not to use my emotions too much.
So many things to learn to do.
But what guarantee do I have that I'll actually do it?
Nope. None. I have no guarantee. No agreement for me to sign except a promise to myself - a promise which can be broken at any time. I have no guarantee.
Sometimes I think there's really no way to do things unless you really truly and absolutely want to.
I really want to. But I'm not willing. Yet.
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