Selamat Malam

It's a wonder how things happen they way it does. 

With 88.9 on in the background. I will sleep tight. 

Good night. 

Begitulah Ceritanya.

HAI.

I've been a lazy bum. Always wanting to blog but as soon as I press the compose button I head for the close button. *grin*

Anyway, I'm supposed to be in bed, because, my sahur won't count unless I go to bed first. But I can't I'm surprisingly not sleepy. Must be the green tea frap. But I don't know really.

Here are some life updates:
(if not for your benefit, for my own catatan and remembrance when I'm old and wrinkly)

I came back from the UK after what seemed to be a long cold 10 months. Which actually when I look back, time passed really quickly. It was hard to believe I actually studied there. Until now, it's a little hard to percaya.

I kinda miss the comfort of Room 3, Flat 69, Telford Court. That was the only place I called home. I miss walking to Butler Hall collecting parcels, hasil daripada the ridiculous ease of spending online. I also miss the "small numbers" when purchasing! Now that I'm back I still convert the prices to GBP just to feel better. I miss Fish & Chips Fridays! And Indian food Thursdays. I miss the campus cat. I miss the UNO bus. I miss ASDA! I miss the proximity to London town.

If I had it my way, I wouldn't stay forever. But it'll be definitely a place worth going back for a visit. (Or for a shopping spree)

I didn't get to travel as often as I'd like - not like I had the means and the time. But I saw what I wanted to see. And went to (almost) all the places I wanted to go.

Despite the hard work, tears, sleepless nights, and cold blasts of wind, I am thankful nonetheless. An experience that would truly be hard to forget.

***

Since then, I've been back and have been job hunting. It pains me to think that I have to grow up really soon! Not that I don't like it. Wait, maybe I don't really like it. It's just that I get a headache thinking of the amount of the responsibility one gets once all the studying is over.

I tell myself to persevere. I won't deny that I've gotten numerous rejections, but hey. That's part of life. I can't build my character if I hadn't had a chance to push myself up. But I'm never alone in all I do, and for that I'm forever grateful to you.

I've learned that I don't do well in phone interviews. I've come to accept that I can't be picky, because it is my first job and I am a fresh graduate. I also realise that I have had no formal internship, which is harder than I expected.

But yes. I remind myself constantly that something is out there somewhere for me. I have faith. I just cannot give up.

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Fifty Shades of Grey is... How do I put it without sounding like a horny sex addict... It is interesting. If you open your mind just a little bit, let yourself loose, it can be a little hard to put down. C'mon, I'm 23. I'm allowed. :P




Ah well. Life has a strange way of twisting and turning you around. But trust yourself enough to fall back into place.

Eyebags don't matter. So long as I'm smiling, it's all good.

Have a wonderful Ramadhan. May we all benefit from this special month!


Till my kerajinan is back, bye!

The other day, I turned 23

On May 12th, I turned 23. What blessing it was when it was sun shiny on the day of my birth! Weather has been wet all week that week and it was great to have the sun and breeze that day.

I found many excuses to make my birthday last longer.

1. Birthday "celebrations" started at 5pm London time - because it was 12am in Malaysia.
2. And again when the clock struck 12 in Hatfield
3. Around 1.30 am when Carl, Ness, and Nic came over to surprise me with Cake!
4. The whole day spent packing while watching House MD
5. Upset that in Malaysian time birthday was over at 5pm London time. But since I was in UK it was still my birthday.
6. Had birthday dinner with friends at Wagamama.
7. At 11:45 pm announced that it was officially my birthday since I was born at 11:45 pm. Which really means my birthday only started at that time.
8. Refused to end my special day once the clock struck 12 on May 13th. And said that it was still May 12th in New York.

Even before my birthday came I was already upset that it would end and that I would have to wait another 365 days (God willing, InsyaAllah) to celebrate it again. So you see, my birthday is a big deal to me. I get upset when people I care about forget my birthday. I love getting wished and wishing myself happy birthday. I love feeling happy and feeling special. I love birthdays. I think it's important to feel special because you were born! I'm sure there's a purpose for you in life, yes?

I am still thinking of a birthday gift for myself.

I really want a Spinner 360.

On another note, I was at Westfield two days ago. Had the most amazing New York Cheese cake. Granted, I haven't had cheese cake in a really long time but oh my goodness it was mmmmmmmm.


I miss feeling like the only girl in the world.



Shaddap. I love this song.


Okay bye!

Like Stealing the Idol From the Temple

Temple Run.





I was playing this game for the first time after downloading it earlier this evening, and I don't know how it struck to me as relating this game to actual life.

(Okay, I may have some indirect experience with relating random things with how life is, so...)

The objective of Temple Run is to run as far as you can, avoiding obstacles while collecting coins along the way. You've to make quick decisions to turn precisely at corners, and pick up the pace as you run further and further.

Why is it like life?

Firstly, life is all about moving forward. There's really no turning back. Walk, run, jump, sidestep, everything is about going ahead. Looking back won't change anything. It's what lies ahead that counts.

Secondly, you're never gonna be short of having to make decisions! And every choice you make, it's bound to come with it's share of consequences. Turn left you duck, turn right you leap. Which ever route you take, the choice is yours and it's how you handle what comes your way is what matters most.

Thirdly, make a mistake of hitting something, and the black monkeys come and chase after you. In life, you'll make mistakes, and that is when people will be on your backs trying to push you further down. Give it your all. Outrun them, prove them wrong, and continue forward.

Fourth, we're all chasing after something in this world. Fame, money, happiness, anything. With "anything" comes risk. Take the risk to jump over fire, or slide under a narrow gate. Get too greedy, stray too far, and you may just fall off. But if you don't take the chance and it's your loss. When an opportunity comes, take it - take the risk, but be mindful and cautious.

Fifth, pay full attention to what you care about most. You'll never know, cause anything can happen in a split second! Yeah everything is all forwards, but while on the move you've still got to be careful of what you say and do. Not everything is jumping for coins!

Did I make sense? I think I did. Trust me, this philosophical thingy sounded wayyy better in my head. I like point number three? You? ;) **TTM*

Semester B starts Tuesday at 11. Keen? Sort of, kind of. Seen the assignment brief for Advertising and OH NO not another case study. But I'm sure it'll be interesting.

Something to look forward to every month while I'm here up till June

February: YOU! Can't wait! 12 days to go.
March: All-England Badminton 2012 at Birmingham
April: 2-week Easter Break
May: I turn 23! *gasp!*
June: Pulang ke tanah airku! 2-year mark!

I am currently playing Raisa's album on repeat. There is just something about her voice or her song. Haven't gotten tired of it yet. Songs I love, Could it Be, Apalah (Arti Menunggu), Terjebak Nostalgia, and Serba Salah.

I wonder if I suggest a song to anybody and when they listen to it they go "This song's so Hana". Ada kah?

Eeyeah. Okay.

Because I can.

Have a good weekend everyone. Bye!

* TTM = Tidak Tahu Malu

Striving For Perfection

People look for perfection.
People dream to achieve perfection.

Even though everyone knows - perfection is rare, little, sometimes non-existent.

But what is perfect?

A sunny day, not a cloud in the big blue sky?
A soft, moist, creamy piece of cake?
Waking up to a rainy morning and being able to go back to sleep?
Having everything go according to plan?

That sunny day may suddenly rain. The soft moist creamy piece of cake may be soft moist and creamy to you but not to another person. That  rainy morning makes it difficult for others who do need to get out. And to get things to go according to your plans happens most of the time only in the movies.

Eh, negativenya?

On a lighter note... "Perfection" does bring different meanings to different people. And, we never seem to want to give up on being 'perfect'.

Perfection - it is something we all wish for at some point of our lives. It's only human. Greatness cannot be achieved without some spunk and self-confidence. You are what you believe. So believe in all that is gooood. *cheerleaders cheering you on*

No one is perfect… that’s why pencils have erasers. -anon

I'm nothing in between, you know you wouldn't want it any other way



Happy holidays! Bye!

How do I say this.

Umm. Okay.

Now how do I put this.

I thought I could say it out here, turns out. I just can't seem to find the right words!

But too lazy to move my fingers from the keyboard to the trackpad/mouse. Therefore lazy to click the close button to just not post this meaningless post. So I should just make it something lah.

Mau karaokeeee. It's just such a good way to let it all out. Mannnn.

I tried being productive this week, but the most productive I got was, like for an accumulative time of an hour and a half for the whole week. I wanna say it's a good week because only today (Friday) will I be going to class. I basically had the whole week off. Yet I have a proposal due Sunday, and an essay on Theodor effing Adorno whose article I just can't seem to finish reading. Distractions! I seriously need to read it, but I find myself reading the same lines over and over again which really means, I'm not concentrating.

How do you concentrate when...

Hmmm.

Rindu si Izz.

Okay lah.

Bye!

I forgot how much I love this song!

 

It's Already June

First off, it's June 5th, and I have to say to you my dearest who's in Mecca right now...

Happy birthday Papa! :) Love you! Love you! Love you!

Ta-da! That's Papa wearing Abang Shaun's Graduation hat and the book of...err... I don't know what. I am aware that I look like him. Like Bunny sez : SAMA O!

Things are doing good so far in college. Maybe cause assignments belum really start kan. I wanna start doing them early this time (Yeah like keep telling yourself that). I don't want to be so super stressed out like previous sem.

I also want to go back to my nice and healthy sleeping habits. Beginning of this year I had a very stable sleeping schedule. Always slept before 12, and would always wake up at 7:30 am to mandi then I could watch Friends. Look at me now, it's almost 3. Nasib tiada class nanti.

I am very proud of three people. Keep up the good work :) 

MY goodness, facebook is being a pain, it's taking such a long time to load. Buduh. Anywho, since blogger is being kind, hari tu kan I was at I Can Has Cheezburger? and just laughed like HAHAHAHAHA when I saw this...

I did this quite sometime ago. Nothing spectacular. I just REALLY had fun that day.

And some random pictures of moments that I miss.

He's so cuuuuute!

Thanks to the Brownie.

Hahaha!

I cannot wait for:

1. Kite flying (at Selayang or Padang Kota Damansara, it doesn't matter...maybe we should try Frisbee! Where to get Frisbee?)

2. Kuala Selangor

3. "Loitering" at KLCC hahah.

4. JULY. 

5. AUGUST. Puasa! Whee! 6 down, one more to go.

7. SEPTEMBER. RAYA!! Double whee! (whee whee!) I think of home, I smile. I love home. Home home home home home. Raya lagi wooohooo can you imagine the amount of FUN?

8. My hair to grow. If it doesn't grow fast/pretty enough I definitely have the temptation to cut it AGAIN. SHORT. But I really do wanna have it longer than it has been before lah.

9. Sales.

10. My next escape :)

Okay it's five.

Hope you're happy.

XOXO,

Nazie.

P/S: Watch out for Switch Online : The Right Click to News. 

Ten Ten Ten!

You know that joke that goes...

A: What's ten plus ten plus ten?

B: Errrrrr. No.

A: TEN TEN TEN!

Ala, make la any tune yang has only three notes. So hard to explain. Hahaha.

It's ALMOST FOUR. And I cannot seem to get any shuteye. Mau tiduuuurrr. Tapi banyak seja dalam fikiran. I am now...

THIS

Imagine me, tiarap-ing on my bed in that exact same position, with those panda eyes (not that hitam la, obviously)  plus my laptop and banyak wires2 di sekeliling. Dui dogo.

Classes have already (well sorta) began this week, and I can tell you that I am really looking forward for it to finish. Assignments are scary as hell and I am takut!

Okay, so I have a few things to say about a few people, but I can't mention names (so if you tearasa or terkembang, sorry or you're welcome lah) but I just really want to say! Childish? Berla.

YOU #1

I DON'T KNOW WHY I PUT YOU NUMBER ONE. There are already 2 people I see now and then that reminds me of you - a guy (ponds) and a girl. SAMA betul this your rupa. Kadang-kadang bikin sakit hati juga la. Tapi kalau I tingu the guy mau seja I ketawa. HAHA. Sama o. I actually hope that you're reading, then you'll go look for this guy I'm talking about, and COMPARE. He's sometimes working at Burger King 1Utama yang on the 2nd floor, but he's also working at Celebrity Fitness. Pigi la cari. Here's a clue, your name has the letter 'A'

YOU #2

You're number two not cause you're second best. Because... I also don't know why. Haha. I just wanna say to you that you've put me through so many emotional roller coaster rides, that I think I'm beginning to be immune to, but I really want to thank you. For being there when I needed you. Muah muah I love You. Here's a clue, your name has the letter 'A'.

YOU #3

I miss you. When are we both free to just meet and talk? And meluahkan all the perasaan. And all the stories that we've longed to share. Hahaahahahaaa. Here's a clue, your name has the letter 'A'.

YOU #4

Should I tell you? I have something that I think I want to tell you but I don't know if I should. Should I? Let me know. Okay? Haha. Here's a clue, your name definitely has the letter 'A'.

YOU #5 & #6

I wish I could turn back time whenever I think of the both of you. Change things. Mend things. Relive the silly days. Sayang kan? Hmm. Here's a clue, both your names has the letter 'A'.

YOU #7

No matter what happens you're my best friend now sampai forever. I love you! You also have the letter 'A'.

YOU #8

What ever happened? I just don't know how and why we ever stopped talking on the phone like we used to, you and your complains and what-nots, this guy la, that guy la. Haha. Mana pergi those days yang I watched you shop while I window shop. You taught me to window shop. Those days when I just pour ALL my isi hati to you and you would only say "relax la..." and give a good hug and I'll be feeling okay. Sigh. Here's a clue, your name has the letter 'A'.

YOU #9

I miss hanging around you! I've hung around you so much before and during my holidays I miss your kegilaan and your sot-ness. I think this one should be obvious. Your name has the letter 'A'.

YOU #10

Cakes. Cakes. Cakes. Cakes. Okay duu? Bah ya la. You seja yang tau ni bahasa. I miss you! Still waiting for pizza rendang okay. Puasa and Raya tidak lama lagi ni! 'A' is like...in your name.

YOU #11

EEEEE! Ko kan, pandai cakap seja. Sometimes so melebih-lebih. And irresponsible. Bikin geram la juga you this kadang-kadang, tapi apa boleh buat la kan. I've to live with it till I don't have to. Ya, 'A' is in your name.

Erm...yeah.

I. Must. Sleep.

Thank you blog for friend-ing me.

Goodmorning. Mati la mau bangun ni.

XOXO,

Nazie.

Oh wait, one question , answer if you may, it's just for fun okay!

"If you could culik any celebrity/well-known figure, who would it be, why, and what ransom would you ask for?"

I said Oprah Winfrey. Cause it's OPRAH. Oprah is loved by so many. Imagine the kemarahan.I'd ask for her share of Harpo as a ransom. Hahaha. I'm not saying that I will culik okay I like Oprah, and this is just for fun seja! Don't tangkap me pulis! I won't kidnap Oprah!

I'm too tiny :(

Okay!

First, lolcat!

I WANT TO SKIP MALAYSIAN STUDIES CLASS.

But knowing me, I won't do so. You know I'll go. Crap. NERRRRRRD. Gahahahaa.

Love will lead you back~ someday I just know that~ lalalalalala.

I tida buli tidur! Pukul brapa suda niiiihhh?! I want to sleep, but I can't. Can ka I don't go to morning class tomorrow? Malas yang terlalu. I need sleep. I'm sleep deprived. The past two weeks haven't been beautiful. They've been hectic, stressy, sleepy, lazy, crazy, rainy, and most of all, busy.

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Of course it wouldn't be all that (and more) if I hadn't done things at the very last minute. As usual lah. I'm actually starting to think that maybe I function best last minute. Not all the time, but most of the time. Maybe last minute's my thing. I have a thing. And it's being last minute.

I know I'm a nerd. But in a good way. I abide by the rules. The petty ones, like don't throw rubbish unless in a dustbin. Orrrr, I always have to have please.

You know what I think a girl/gal/lady/Laydeeehhh/Sexy hot momma/chic,chics,chix,chica/ woman/perempuan should do? I think every *all of the above* should always always and always say "thank you" when someone opens/holds the door open for her. No matter if it's a lil boy, a old man, a friend, a boyfriend, your parents, some unknown person, you should just always say thank you. You'll never know, mana la tau, you may have just brightened up someone's day. Yes, just by saying THANK YOU.

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And yes I'm a nerd. Because I do work well. Because I have to work hard. Because I need to work hard. I'm just really aiming for a scholarship for my degree. Insya-Allah. I've always admired my many many family members and friends who've shined (shone ka? Haha.) especially beginning SPM till now. They're very lucky, very blessed to have such a brain. Gosh.

And I know a reason why my money finishes so fast. If I wait, and waiting in a mall, I spend money. So don't let me wait, cause then I'll have no money to go jalan-jalan with you. Nah how la? Haha. But it's good that now, I can actually say to myself "I don't need it." Good kan? You can do it too! Just think of aaaalll the unnecessary things that you WANTED but didn't really need. And how much money you've spent on it all.

A lot of my kachings still go to food. All kinds of food. Yummmm. Hey, I NEED food. If you know me, you know I must have my food.

FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDD MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I'm hungry. Really.

I only had soup and garlic bread yang ultra crunchy for dinner. Tidak kesian?

Okay, to end the post, LOLCAT that made me LOLed!

Hahahahaha!! You know, Sharpie...The permanent marker...

this one! Haha.

Bah bah bah, tidur lah. Thank you blog  *pleased*

XOXO,

Nazie.