Feel good

Sometimes, you just got to pick yourself up.

I want to pick myself up, so here's a (vain) list of 22 things why I am special. Twenty two cause well. You know. I'm 22 years old.


So if like. You're not into me puji-ing myself  or reading a long (but really interesting) post you can skip it :p

#1 I can eat like nobody's business, and its hard for me to gain weight. :] But I need to gain weight. Because I am unfortunately underweight. So sometimes it's difficult you know, when I eat and it does show, it shows in my face. Not like...go to places where I want it to go. But then again, I am glad I can eat and eat and eat and eat! I <3 to eat.

#2 I am small. Sure I find it hard to cari baju that's my size, BUT! You know. People think I'm young cause of my size. And I can run around the playground and pretend I'm 12. And up till I think I was 18, when I went to makan with family, I still got charged as CHILD. See? I help save money.

#3 I live near Tg. Aru beach. Okay la not la I special cause of this but I got umm. Extra. Like... You know? Have you seen the sunsets there?! Homaigoodness. To die for. So pretty. It's been such a long time since I've seen one. Don't believe la tu how cantik it is. Nah, cuba you see!

Rindunya.

#4 I THINK I can dance.  Well, for fun, not professionally. Although how I dream of being able to.......

 

 #5 I may be stubborn. But that just means I'm strong willed. Yeeaah. Give me some credit. I'm not stubborn ALL the live long day. Heh.

#6 I am daughter to parents whom may be so ARGHHH sometimes but they always have their reasons. And I'm the one daughter that cooks for the family. And the one daughter who took over making kuih Raya. And also pumpkin cake yang sedap. Which makes me extra extra extra special.

On the way back from Kudat Syawal 2011

#7 I found out that my birthday according to the Hijri calendar is on the 6th of Syawal. THEREFORE. My birthday is on the 6th day of raya, which is impossible for anyone to forget :D And, I am already 23. If use that calendar la. *secretly in denial*

#8 When I was younger, I entered a singing competition for Christmas organized by my computer class. (Yes, I went to computer classes. It was so much fun) And Abang Shaun yang jahat gila scared me made me cry right before I had to go up the stage. And well, you guessed it. I sang Que Sera Sera while nangis teresak-esak. "Que seraaa *sobsob* seraaaaa. Whatever will beeee *sobsob* will beeee". I remember practising it with Papa. Haha now that I think of it whyyy lah did I join. I got third place, by the way if you're wondering. Okay la so what la if it is hadiah kesian. The important thing is I did it anyway. :P

#9 Also, when I was younger, like my tadika Tunasari days, I was the rapper! Shit. Hahahaha. Rap as in betul betul rap okay? We were doing some turtle awareness thingy and we were like "SAVE THE TURTLE! SAVE THE TURTLE!" and I had my friends dancing (all of us dressed like turtles. Grey-ish shiny jumpsuits with a turtle shell on our backs. For real!). Then, my first line was "We are the children of Tunasari!" Oh God punya la trip haha! I guess when you grow older all your guts just hilang.

#10 I think I was an accidental baby. Hoho. But but buuutt. Mummy say, bila she pregnant with me, she say I am for "bikin main-main, kasi kawan" dia bilang. Nah. Memang betul pun. I am her lamb, everywhere she went I was sure to go. I'm loved. :]

#11 I managed to ditch bit by bit the habit of procrastinating! That is quite a feat! I used to think I function well under pressure, but perhaps I function even better with more time. 

#12 I am special because I have a Diploma before I go into my Degree, which gives me an edge kind of. You know. Like. Ya. It really does help. A lot.

#13 I was part of the 2004 SFC choir team who were National champs! Woohoo! The story was, I was only called on to join to be a backup/pelapis for pianist. Then. They tidak cukup orang? Haha. I know la I was like not first choice or anything, but still! It was a moment so proud. I love SFC. Like. My school spirit is so tinggi. Then after that win we got so many invites to perform sini sana. And plus free food. Ooooh. Hehe.

This was in The Star! There I am tuu di the paling left di depan. Oh wow.

#14 I made two really good speeches (at least that was what I was told) so far in my whole lifetime. One was during my secondary school graduation "pride and joy" and the other was during Abang Shaun and Kak Nurul's wedding dinner in 2008.

#15 I have/had two cats that I really loved and love me back (cheh kununnn) One, Bimbo. My blue-eyed silly beauty who would also minta my jagung. And two, Jojo Hamau Gaga The Cat. Who was and still is an excellent friend and teman and the nakalest and the silliest but has the cutest nose and pink cushion paws. Naaaw. 

Jojo & Bimbo :')

#16 I have gigi satu. You have? Don't have kan. Naah. Special la jadi dia. Let me show you definition of gigi satu. 

See the red arrow pointing to my gigi. That is my gigi satu. It makes me smile in two different ways depending what side my face is facing. But! I've learned to accept.

#17 I am Nanay (auntie) to these two boys! One monkey jumping on the bed and one yet to be known.... Izzarif a.k.a IZZY!! and Ryan Irfan a.k.a Baby Ryan! Okay I don't have Ryan's picture in my laptop. But you all know Izzy :D 

Can you feel his ke-jajal-an?

#18 When I turned 18, I spent my birthday with the Bons at Hyatt courtesy of Mummy dearest. I felt special cause my best friends went to all the trouble and made me a baju so pretty! Cuba you see...

See! The pretty butterfly!

#19 I am able to take criticism and am patient. Alamak perasannya. Hahaha! Betul la. Although I may be like ^*@(#D)*@^! in my heart, but I will accept what you say with open arms. Yes, I do realise things and though it takes A LOT for me to finally take action, but in the end I do it. I take that step to change what needs to be changed.

#20 I have the greatest friends anyone could ask for. Serious. We may not go on holidays together, or live nearby or meet all the time or so rich we buy gifts for each other. But I sure know that they mean so much to me! 

See me embracing my gigi satu. Eh. Heh. Love you all!

#21 I feel special because you make me feel special. And so the best penceria, tukang make silly lame jokes, selalu dowan to laugh at my jokes, pembully, tukang fix barang, teman makan, teman play monopoly (or any games for that fact) sampai gaduh, teman jalan-jalan, teman buat kerja bodoh, and segalanya yang happy in my life. ALLY my love! <3

The paling best day and best place with the best person. Mau go lagi. Rindunya.

#22 I am special cause just cause I am! God created me as one of a kind. He made me patient, a crybaby, silly, clumsy, pretty, hot. He gave me a good brain and a good heart. He gave me good health, great family, great friends. And I'm limited edition! No me, no more la sudah! Satu seja Hana Nazsulaeeqa Harun di dunia. :)

If you made it this far! Yay! Thanks heee heee! 

Kita semua special in our own silly little weird way. We just need to take a sec, pause and take it all in and say to ourselves "HOWAU! I'm so great." It's really okay you know to be perasan sekali sekala. We all do it, feel good doing it, so... why not, right?

Why are you special? :)

BYE!!

ps: I love you.

Regina Ho.

I miss you plenty.

I miss talking to you.

I miss laughing with you.

I miss hanging out with you.

I miss our comfortable silence.

I miss the "I know what you're thinking" moments.

Where are you Best Friend?

If Baby Could

Inay!

Inay, my birthday is next week. I'm very excited Inay, it's my first birthday! But why won't you be home? Mama said lama lagi baru I get to see you. Does that mean I'm not getting a birthday present from you Inay? I won't get to have my cute handsome face and dashing smile taken photos of? But Inay, I'll be sad that you won't be home for my first birthday.

Oma and Grampa always bring me to their room and make me 'walk' Inay. Why aa? I've always been able to walk ba Inay, but just that day they got so excited to see me start walking without stumbling. Kenapa they so happy Inay? They can walk too, why aren't they clapping their hands and saying "yay, clever boy!" to everyone who can walk?

Papa likes to make noises with his feet and use long sticks to beat things. Nanay will be so irritated of that noise but kan Inay, I like it. I shake my head along with the beat and then that day as i was shaking shaking I bumped my head on the bed! But I didn't cry (I cried a little) cause I'm a strong boy right Inay?

Mama says we're going to go fly to see you and Uncle Nafiq. I'm going to have another Aunt? More people to hold me and play with me???? I can't wait to get on the big thingy that flies. Mama said I have to be a good boy and sit still. How can I, Inay, it's going to be my first time!

Inay, where are Aunty Thara, Aunty Pika and Babu Shafa? Nobody's been singing with me, I really miss singing with them. Everytime I go "Aaaaaaaaaa" nobody else goes "Aaaaaaaaa" with me. And I've always wanted me to meet Aunty Reggie but I never dapat jumpa...

One more thing Inay, why isn't Bimbo happy to see me? I greet her with a happy HIIIIII everytime I see her. She always looks scared! I don't think I'm scary...maybe she's just shy.

Inay I miss you! I'm sure you miss me too :) I love you Inay! Wish you were home...

Love,

Muhammad Izzarif bin Mohd Shaun Yazeed or Arif or Izzy.

P/S: Inay, I can run now! Can you imagine the excitement of everyone here at home?

I miss you Izz!

Caution: Long post probably ahead.

After so long, we finally met up. Though not like it used to be, it was really really really great to finally gather and eat and talk just like we used to.

Picked Thara up then picked Ain up pause for awhile at Ain's place to be pretty then drove to Reggie's! I used to live within their area Luyang-Penampang, and Thara was the one yang jauh-er cause she was like...dekat school. You imagine Reggie used to WALK to my place when she was younger (in primary school). Now I'm jauh-est!

But believe you me, it's always worth the drive.

Always.

You know why? I'll tell you why. With them it's never awkward. Though silent there'll be no weird stares. If there were any we'd laugh about it.

It's easy to talk and just let it out. Though sometimes some things are just better left unsaid. Ha-ha.

They don't mind taking pictures haha! They also know when to help take pictures (without any of us asking!

Service was slow, we had to ask many times for pisau garpu and sudu, and our lamb chop and grilled chicken didn't appear even when the 2 salads and pizza were already habis n menghadam dalam perut!

So we got some stuff cleared, finally resolved, and understood. Wish none of it had happen tapi macam mana juga kan. Sudah happen. But its good we got talking, and the rest of the night went on smoothly. Kind of.

So talk talk talk and more talk then more laughs then

Thara gave us a gift each! So cute lagi tu it had bags. At first she was like "Okay, can I give you guys your bags now?"

I thought she was gonna give us handbags!

I got necklace, Reggie earrings and Ain hairclip. All nice. Very nice.

Then I asked whether a certain someone was kurus already or not then Reggie burst out laughing then said "Ha?! JOKE OF THE DAY" when I was sincerely asked whether that person has lost weight. But I really thought she did! Or would!

The rest of the night went to more luahan perasaan and more stories that all of us could learn from, and should learn from.

And also news that got me excited! And Thara too! And Ain scared. And Reg to think about.

Why am I being so...weird?

Anyhow, Tuesday:

1. Reg goes to send car to Kolombong

2. Ain goes to pick up Thara then pick up Reg from Kolombong then pick me up then head for breakfast (must Soto cause Ain want haha) at Sri Dewi, or;

2. Ain goes to pick Thara up then me then the 3 of us go for breakfast while Reg goes with her mum and we pick her up/meet her somewhere.

3. Go WILD before noon.

4. Lunch at TBC

5. Sing our hearts out at TBC

6. Dessert TBC. Warisan?

7. Beach...TBC

Nah itu seja lah plan untuk hari itu!

Since I'm home, some things I plan to do are:

At least have a purrrty sunset - but always hujan

Bake! :)

Find the time to bake

Find butterscotch

Find the time to find butterscotch

Barbekuuuu!

Take MUCH pictures (much instead of many cause I want it to be uncountable)

Enjoy fast broadband only with Streamyx (tak payah potong, buang masa)

Spend some quality time

Have a blast on New Year and eve

Finish those gifts

Melalaaaak with my melalak buddies

Go somewhere not so near, cause Ain wants to drive far-far.

Get Ain to drive cause Ain never drive us

Enjoy my bed and toilet

Kacau Izz

Go for Dimsum! Must.

Watch 2 must-watch movies

Watch Astro cause I don't have any when I return to KL

Kasi kawan mummy go jogging

Oh, eat of course

CUT MY HAIR. CUT MY HAIR. CUT MY HAIR.

I. Must. Cut. Hair.

The old habit is back! Uh-oh... Old habits die hard ;)

Oh noes, me 21 in five months. Oh no.

oh no...

Today should be a good day

Because today's date is so pretty! 09.09.09! If I were back home we'd already be having a family picture. (which by the way has not happened since I came here)

But it was not a good day.

I got sick again after I just got better a week ago. I am convinced its cause I didnt drink enough water. Had really bad fever yesterday, this morning I didnt get any better. Woke up sweaty but still very feverish. Then went to the doctor in the afternoon - that cost me 50 bucks. Got a terrible headache and wanted to puke the whole journey.

But then I think I'm feeling better now. At least much better then this morning.

Well anyway...this is very much delayed, but this is for Reggie! My dear girl I told you once I'll tell you again, that even though you didn't get it, you did so good that night. :) And I'll tell you that no one can scream like a convent girl so even Ain and I were enough to cheer you on. Jason definitely helped haha!

Today while sick a stream of thoughts just came into my head, and I just do not know why. Started asking about people whom I have no interest about. Suddenly just-so-randomly teringat the past which I particularly hate, because I teringat about this psycho b*tch. Psycho. Sheesh.

10/09/09

Never got done with the post, I dozed off.

Ta-Da! Finally a new look for my blog. Nothing much, but I like it.

My last semester has started, I missed my first two classes yesterday cause I was sick. And so my final semester has brought me two potential enemies - Copywriting and Electronic Publishing.

Initially, people may think that taking Mass Communication is for people who 'don't know what to do'. Yeah well I'll tell you frankly, that was exactly what I had in mind when I signed up for the course. I didn't know what to do. My mind was firmly set on Early Childhood Education - think about it, there'll always be a need for that. But I don't know why at the very last minute just before I had to send it to the post office I wrote down "Diploma in Mass Communications". Without my parents knowing.

It took me a good 6 months to decide on it.

Here I am now, I despised the beginning, I'm enjoying the journey, and loving the ending. I guess there was a reason why I did that change. It's probably one of the hardest jobs to grasp with in KK. You don't necessarily get the greatest pay. It's not the usual doctor-lawyer-teacher thing (I wanted to be those back in the day). I'm still trying to figure out why, though. But I do believe that there was a reason. And surely it'll be shown in times to come.

I haven't had my mind set on what I should major in. I haven't taken IELTS. I haven't started looking for places to do my internship.

There's just so many things on my mind!

I was doing the laundry a few hours ago, and then I don't know why I suddenly teringat about our little dance performance that we did when we were in form 1. Or was it form 2. I can't recall. Alaa, you know the one we did with "Stronger" and the chair thing for speech day. Correct me if I'm wrong, was it me, Reggie, Pika, Dai, Gail, and Marichelle? It was crappy how we weren't allowed to wear jeans. Bodoh o that rule. We had to wear stupid slacks with stupid white shirts and necktie. Hahaha! And the make-up was horrid. Hair was horrid too, we had braids all over! What shoes did we wear? Were we barefoot?

Oh and remember how we were already on stage and the curtains were already open, the music started then suddenly electricity went off? We automatically froze. Like we knew it was gonna happen.

Gosh. Those were the days. Nothing like 'em.

20 days into Ramadhan, and I cannot wait for Eid! Already in the mood for rendang! I'm coming home next week!

Eh, mari buat open house? ;)

Stupid SBWS.

Just Keep Swimming

Swimming swimming swimming...

Unfortunately this post has nothing to do with swimming.

It's been almost a good month since I've been able to blog, so quick updates:

I finished my SIXTH semester! I am so relieved.

I finished reading Khaled Hosseini's Kite Runner. Very very visual. And a book that's hard to put down. My favourite quote "Children aren't colouring books. You can't just paint them with your favourite colour," Thanks Reggie my Love.

I managed to survive the last few hectic weeks of the semester.

My laptop was 'sick' for more than a week. I was laptopless for that period.

Had to pay 'medical fees' for my laptop. Not cheap.

Coughed and wheezed one night, the next day had difficulty breathing. I thought my athsma came back. But Alhamdulillah no.

...or maybe i had to check the same day I had difficulty breathing?

Went to see Rianah's SUPER HUGE Puncak Alam campus.

Lega that Ally knows. :)

1st year Anniversary at Get Crafty on July 31st! (big accomplishment, never thought I'd stick to a job that long - and still going on strong)

Was offered a full-time job. Most prolly in KK. Should I?

Woke up 4.30 in the morning to complete an assignment and was SO WORTH IT. Kan Mel?

Actually completed an assignment without doing it last-minutely! (another big accomplishment- like...extremely big.)

most importantly,

I Tara-ra-ra Boom-di-ay-ed

And I just felt like letaking gambars of my 2009.

She is as vain as ever, but I love her :p

Ya lah, time ni baru dapat camera. Testing-testing la kunun. This is the "shake it" effect. ...manada effect-effect la gambar ni blur. Haha.

"Thumbs Up!". How many people out there can do this? Raise their feet! Mel, don't marah kay.

I see you next week Best Friend! Yayyy!

She turned 18 yesterday! Be good Min! They look so cina. Not that its a bad thing.

Ally's 20th birthday makan-makan at Cozy Corner :) I tau tu when I mau naik the car Ally said my perut buncit. :p

Mesti dia rasa dia cool dengan PSP baru dia. Cis. Hahaha :D Suddenly teringat how Zetty put Eyemo on Ally. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Look! AmBank sponsored the Camels at Zoo Negara! Which mesti they confused kan, why their "desert" ada grass...

Eisyraff! Urang bilang smile tingu camera dia smile fake tingu toy car. Hmph.

Reggie and KiKi at Petrosains! KiKi leaving soon! :( :(

Eisyraff = Game = Eisyraff

He called me to ask whether I had Aunty Yana's DS. Which I didn't have! Kesian dia.

Research Seminarrr! Mr Faisal said "I already cabut undi for you, you're first" SHEESH.

Dinosaur punya perhimpunan. Ready to attack!

So the assignment we had to do for News Writing was the photojournalism assignment. Yeah, the one where we had to wake up vereh vereh earleh. Tapi tidak apa lah, in the end semuanya worth it. Syed Hafiz bin Bedut's mum was very cooperative and everything went just perfectly.

Hadn't had enough sleep. Before, after that. Trying to catch up on it.

Oh the lovely holy month of Ramadhan is finally here. Semoga bulan mulia ini membawa rahmat kepada kita semua! :) You just get super excited when this month comes. Either you're excited for Raya, or excited for sungkai, or excited to go bazaar. You're just always excited. Or maybe it's just me. Heh.

I think I need to have new hair. Tidak kira lah cut kaaa, trim kaaa, dye kaaa. Cause...I think my hair is bored. And my hair is boring. And it's going to be raya so new hair is needed. *alasan*


Happy Puasa to all Muslimin and Muslimat! (betul ka tu?)


Blog needs a makeover!

Sometimes you're there, sometimes...you're not.

lovelovelove,
Nazie.

Daku sangat penat!

Tired of doing assignments! AAAaaaAaAAAAaaaaAAAAaaAaaA!

Setiap Sunday mau hantar assignment, adui. This week today have to send assignment, Thursday have to send assignment (BELUM START LAGI NI. Mati la. Dunno how to do ba)

Mau rehaaaat :(

Someone tell me why, each time I KNOW I have to submit an assignment, I will always fall asleep. Or do something else. Gaaawwwdd. Life is really being hard on me now.

Reggie was GOTCHA-ed (yeah, Rudy and Ean Hitz.fm gotcha-ed) yesterday! Teehee! I wonder how it went...

My sayang cousin Rianah suda masuk UiTM Shah Alam! Haven't seen her yet. Ain is already back here. I want to meet you people!

Shafa pg S'wak for one sem nda pandai kestau urang kan. Jahat ooo. I know pun dari Pika. Itu pun dari blog. Ada la juga sikit I terasa tp nda pa, Good luck Shafa!

Naja pun masuk UiTM suda! Mesti UiTM KK punya tu kan? Sab teda bunyi-bunyi pun.

This is already week 8. 6 more weeks till the end of this semester.

And I can't wait.

I've been thinking a lot about my hair lately. Ah besa la kan, if I look at other people's nice hair I pun want. But I promised to have long hair for Raya this year. Not like it's super long or anything. Now nda sampai shoulder pun. Hahaha.

Oh, I'm just spreading the word here, CLICK ME . Do read our stories and comment pretty please :)

On my list this month:

1. Kasut baru. Well, sandals. Flats. Apa-apa seja la.

2. Cd Kusung. Sayang burn files for assignment guna DVD

3. Surprisingly I can't think of anything else.

Very the deliciouuusss

Kay, I gotta go.

iwantthatpie

XOXO,

Nazie.

Hellos.

Still a little bit of your song in my ear.

Sia siiiiini bah di ruma si Rianah. Limpang-limpang seja, taip-taip ni blog. Si Rianah ntah apa la dia buat tiba-tiba tanya Kinabalu National Park di mana. Di dekat gunung Kinabalu la ba kan?

Si Min a.k.a Jasmine bekatawa-katawa befon sama boifren dia laitu. Sepa lagi kan becall suda mau pukul satu pagi ni.

Sian Si Naja tidur di bawah. Berla dia, mau juga menyempit sama the sumandaks sini.

Ui tadi on the way mau pigi ruma Kakak Zura punya jauh. Well I rasa it's jauh la. Sangat la mau tidur on the way there sab ba, memang la lama suda kan tia tidur dengan secukupnya. Pasal exam la ba ni. Heih. Mana mau urus assignments la apa segala. (Sepa suru juga kan buat last minit).

Eh, my telinga sakit oo. I think got jerawat. Ew. Haha. Cool. Enden?

I sleepy ba dis actually tapi kan, entah la. Lama ba suda tia update blog ni jadi i mengambil la the chance to update.

Mummy ba sana bilik kasi play lagu di phone dia balik-balik.

Jap, I'm on the phone.

Cough.

Min is still on the phone. Teehee.

Random pictures of my weekend will be up soon enough, okay? Okaaayyy. Me is having loadsa fun sama my cousin-cousin yang digelar "tulin" oleh Rianah. Ada la baitu sebab dia. Best this. Jarang ba get to bekumpul.

Can I not bring my bag tomorrow and substitute it with Sexy's bag? (And I thought I didn't have a name for it).

Ui! Ada ba ni satu baju Pull & Bear. I WANT!

Cammie baru seja type "BAU" updated. Si Cammie punya blog kalau suda kena update ada "BAU" ba. Tula tu. Haha.

I mangantuk oredi dis. Maaf la aa, today's bahasa kita kasi dia Sabahan sikit. Macam siuk pula.

Marikitagoplaylayang-layang,

XOXO,

Nazie.

Cool.

Enden?

:(

SuperGirl lost her super powers.

Leaving home is like giving superman krypton.
Leaving home to me is like giving me A HUGE AMOUNT OF DUMPING OF crap.

Very malas to start class. NOT excited.

Dear You,

Can I just ignore things? And befriends with who I wanna be, even though it'll seem as if I'm the unfun-nest and uncool-est person? I want you to come quick! Quick!

God, I want to save myself from the "pollution" and pollution. Argh! The things you people emit kill! PLEASE SEDAR. I DO NOT WANT TO DIE BECAUSE OF THAT.

I don't think it's cool, I don't think it's hot.

Rules need to be set, sorry if I sound selfish. I'm being selfish for the sake of EVERYONE. Though prolly you won't think highly of it.

Hana the party pooper?
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TOO BAD!

notlookingforwardtothenonesenseandshit.

XOXO,
Nazie.
tsk.
I want Reggie.
I want Tee.
I want Pika d small girl.
I want Shafa d loud girl.
I miss Supervisor!